THE RESURRECTION

We always seem to associate the word resurrection to spiritual beliefs a miraculous feat of the dead rising back to life.  As the story is told it is a wonderful thing to be able to see, feel and experience that.

Every Easter it is a known day of meaning, thoughts, topics etc.  We can look at this on the sense of the biblical aspect but for me I look at it as a word that has impacted my existing life as I walk and breathe today…tomorrow…forever…until eternity.

Death doesn’t necessarily have to be the complete ending...as I believe the soul continues to exist.  But death can be seen in many ways as in

~ Ending of ~

Life

Marriage

Relationship

Friendship

Job

Business

There are so many endings that we experience in life as the list can go on and on.   I am sure that we all have experienced something that takes our mind to space of the life is being sucked out of you and you feeling as if you have died.  That there was absolutely no hope of it ever existing again.  It is with that mindset that I know that you can reflect and see that yes I have experienced so many deaths in my life yet I still continue to live.

Some of you may be saying what in the world or should I say universe is she talking about.  Well let me give you an example of a “Death” for me….

Being married was typically another form of life that was breathed into me.  It took me to take another phase in my life to shape and mold newness that I have never experienced before.  You begin to formulate your place in the relationship, keeping in mind that the man is the lead.  The masculine entity to guide and direct the family to greatness no matter what that may be to you (Guys how’s that wink)!   Yes I am a woman and I said that lol! 

So you make plans and you want the dream that is depicted to us and embedded in our brains from day 1.   A house with a picket fence, car, 1.5 children and a dog oh yeah and how can I forget a JOB!  You go off to college and come back and the family say hmm…..it’s about time you get married!  Well unfortunately I don’t have anyone in my life right now but I guess I can get married.  So there goes the timestamp…Keep in mind ladies they keep saying that 30 is kind of like over the hill as the tribe keeps reminding you over and over again.  You begin to feel like damn I better get all of this done before I expire (You’re getting old OMGosh another form of death).  You do the best you can to work and try to get out there to meet someone that you think is suitable for this to become a reality.  But what if the tribe begins to give you suggestions “Oh have you seen____ OMG he has turned out to be really handsome”.  I saw _____ mother today and she said that he was available.  How in the world do you get to that part of the conversation while standing in the grocery store looking at fruit hahahahaha (never figured that one out)!  I have no idea but I know one thing that I would never ever subject my child to that as it is totally uncalled for and embarrassing as hell!  Keep in mind in other countries that is called an arranged marriage which you have no say so at all.  You come home one day and two tribes are there discussing the finer points of the transaction and next thing you know you have to pack and move in with a person you don’t even know.  Need I say more?

Ok yeah back to the story...

So you meet someone and you begin to share experiences to get to know each other within yourselves and your tribes.  There is so much to do in such a short amount of time a date has to be agreed upon and that is when the tribes begin to make demands.  It is bad enough that you have to pull this spectacular event together but now we have demands in seating, food, alcohol, music, clothing colors and choices and people who are just barred from coming at all.  Talk about added pressure.  Once everything is orchestrated and the day comes it is show time.  Words are exchanged and next thing you know your name has changed.   Ever second, minute, hour, day, month, and year you are building, growing and learning and building your legacy as 2 individuals have collided into 1.  Then somehow life gets in the way and things change for whatever reason.  Sometimes it slaps you right in the face or other times it creeps up on you like a thief in the night.   Either way it is that train that is barreling down the track towards the light at the end of the tunnel and you cannot stop it… The only thing that you can do is brace yourself for impact and hope that no one gets hurt in the process.  And then wham life as we knew it no longer exists…the dynamics changes rapidly.  To some tribe member either party is considered as dead just disappearing from their lives as a whole.  In an unrealistic mind it has something to do with being from one tribe and not being able to continue the relationship even though things have changed.   And believe you me tribe members, friends and acquaintances can and will turn on you like a pack of wild dogs.  I’ve never understood that and til this day I never will.  You all have invested many years of experiences with one another and all of a sudden you don’t exist you’re dead.  That to me is very small minded and very selfish.  Because, at a time when either party needs you most you turn your back on them with absolutely no remorse. I guess you have never heard of  the word KARMA!   The same ones that were smiling in your face are the ones that will put a knife in your back.  And guess what it is not your fault, you haven’t changed.  What has changed is the dynamics, the world, the universe and your soul that has grown into the need of belonging is ever more not present. 

We as humans are so selfish and one-sided in our thought process.  When was the last time that you have stepped out of your shoes and put on someone else’s?  For some it may have been NEVER and I suggest you try it out one day as your eyes will be opened.  Can you ever look at another and truly believe in your heart and soul that you understand what they are dealing with?  If you can then you are one of the elite the very few that has compassion.  Compassion is not something that you learn, it is something that is instilled in you at birth….It is the rushing of feelings that allows you to feel that persons soul and know what they are dealing with in life.  It is the silent whisper that says I am here and I will never leave you ever.  A compassionate mind, leads to compassionate thoughts which transcends into a compassionate vision of hope in the world we live in! ~ Dawn

You may be wondering how this all ties in!  Well….

For myself I have experienced a lot of physical deaths which is forever within my lives.  But it is the silent deaths that no one can visually see but only you can feel which essentially will consume your soul.  It is everything that has existed in your life being ripped away and disgarded as if it never really ever existed at all.  It is the steps that you have taken that are erased as you begin to take the next step with no path to create or follow.  It is the history that you have created being wiped away from you book of life.  It is a brain wipe a reconfiguring of your mind, thoughts, actions transcending to a new tone of voice.  A new way of existing a new life to live. 

As we know death to be in our world I ask that you don’t think of it as just a physical that you also think of it as a mental form of distinction!  There are many ways to accept any form of death but with that said are you strong enough as the story to be born again to rise to be renewed.  Our higher power gave his all so that we can have everlasting life.  Whether you believe or not that is up to you but be sure and know that there is something bigger than us!  Just as we exist so does others in this microscopic life that we live.  Technically we are only a tiny particle in a vast universe. 

As you walk your path of the cookie cutter life that you may have decided that you want to live know that there is something far greater than what you have and see.  A practice that I like to use is where I close my eyes and I begin to walk (using my mind to take me on my journey) or sit in a never ending space of silence.  The only thing that I see is darkness without limits there are no boundaries just ongoing.  So why can’t I live like that?   It is a stillness that is comforting nothing being distorted or tainted!  It is a peace that I have never ever felt before in this stage of my life until I began to incorporate this into my existence.  What you will do is concentrate on your breathing and the silence and peace will take over.  A form of meditation but in accordance to Dawn’s needs and this is what works for me but may not work for you.  But, I will say that a mere 5 minutes of meditation will change your world. 

Know that in our universe which is comprised of many worlds that there has to be a power, a source a energy that we can draw from to push us to the next realm. 

I have never ever thought about it this way as a phrase could be “I have died a million deaths” or “ a cat has nine lives”…I will tell you this each death that I have experienced I have also had a rebirth again just as the sun rises.  Did I know that I would at that time NO!  I thought that my life was over and in a sense yes it was. But, what they don’t tell you is that a new cycle, phase, existence begins..

A “BRAND NEW DAY” as I like to say A NEW DAWN (wink) which will be shown upon you but, you have to have belief not just in a powerful source but in yourself.  Hey you have alot to experience and so much resilience in life when are you going to tap into that energy?

When are you going to say maybe it didn’t work but guess what I have risen like the phoenix out of the fire (thx KP2).  That it is this death of nonexistence in which I have suffered which has given me time to be reborn.  It truly makes me smile to look back in the void of darkness and know that the lantern that was placed for me to pick up on my trail of life sat there and waited for me.  The light was never extinguished it just shined brightly hoping that the tiny hand of faith would bring us together.

WOW!!!  That is such a powerful play on words…the nonexistent physical light that called out to my inner voice has now been found by my soul.

And that is where the story essentially began

I AM

REBORN

REFRESHED

RENEWED

ALIVE

I AM RESSURECTED….