THE EARTH YOU SHAPE WITHIN

When you are sitting all alone within your space what are you actually thinking of?  As we all know that we are a part of this Earth, but for some reason the ego always wants us to be a part of something much bigger. And that something bigger is the mirror affect which keeps pushing you and the end result becomes a reflection of which you truly are.  As we live upon this vast piece of land it allows us to center ourselves within the two elements of the day Sunrise and Sunset.  They also represent the most crucial aspects of existence which is light and darkness which could also relate to life and death as well.  It could also reflect the thoughts of the soul that transcends to the body and mind. If you live your life in positivity and peace therefore you are living in light.  And that is the light that burns within and shines brightly.  And as they say people who are of the same light will be able to see that everlasting burning flame within you.  Then you have the other aspect darkness, negativity!   To be honest most negative people are not aware that they are actually negative!   No one starts off in life desiring or wanting to be negative.  They are so use to existing and living the way they are they have no desire to change.  Essentially it could be by no fault of your own due to what you have seen or experienced that is allowing your body to absorb and speak negativity therefore you are emitting darkness. 

I think back to when I was a child and yeah some may say it was a long time ago but it really wasn’t (yeah that’s what I said) so stop laughing.  I am thinking back to a little box that projected images that was either in your living room or if you were lucky in your very own bedroom.  I have thought about the shows that were being played.  I won’t bore you with the names lol but we had shows that were comparable to Animal Planet, MTV, Talk shows etc.  But what I can say fully is that we didn’t see so much death and destruction on TV.  We didn’t see the gorge and the blood, the carnage, the evil, the hatred and the realization of the darkness that is amongst us.  And real-talk the News filters a lot of that into the mind as we have been indoctrinated to read the news via newspapers and to watch it as well.  And the news is on all day and night how in the hell can they find that many negative subjects and stories 24/7 365, I will never know?  But, what I can say is apparently the most popular show on TV as people may not believe is the News.  My reason is that it is on all the time and it has never been shut off for ratings that should tell you something! Hmmm… big bubble over the head time!  I rarely even watch it even in the location of the world that I am in.  I may ingest some it (not by choice) as there are TV’s on within the office which seems to be what they all seem to watch is the news.   What I have failed to see is positivity and if it is shown it is very small segments that get lost in the small time bracket that they were given. 

I can reflect back to being a child outside and playing, and the only blood you may have seen was from someone falling and getting a scrap while playing in the neighborhood.   Within a small town your news that you got was from the neighborhood person who I would call being nosey.  But to be honest they were performing a service giving us updates on the activities within our environment.   

So let’s get back to the earth you shape within…hmmm this title came to me and I thought wow what journey am I being taken on for this posting. 

I was thinking about Earth as a cumulative as each person making up the earth!   But, then the thoughts took me into the direction of my individual Earth.  My own individual earth which is a part of the mind, body, soul and spirit,  the part that lurks within each and every one of us.  It is the essence of the biggest part of our lives.  It is the who, what, when and where of it all.  It is what makes us who we are, what we say and how we maneuver in the world.  It is the variation of human existence from all over the world.  Each and every crevasse of our home sends out the beacon and connections to our very own heart.  It is what BEING is all about!

So when you are thinking of a home ~ think of yourself, think of your vessel (your being) being your home and then take that out even further to the many cells within.  Earth is our home but our beings are encased in a home that we will continue to maintain until we depart.  At first I was thinking that this is deep but, then I was like it is just another form of information that is channeled through the sun bringing light to the world (smile).

I cannot give you the why’s to the words that I type and share but what I can say is that it is obvious that it is for us to ingest.  It is giving you information to engage and embrace!   To determine whether or not it means anything to you so you can incorporate it into your home.

Our minds are a very powerful tool and what we see, and hear is recorded from the very beginning of our first breath.  Some things are right at the surface and can be remembered at the split second of thought.  Whereas other things are deeply embedded to only come to be upon a memory or an unusual occurrence that may trigger a thought or scenario.

We all need some down time and time to relax.  But just think when you are sitting and watching TV and you are looking at a reflection of what the writer wants you to see.  Most of the times it is outrageous and very rarely would it have a real life ending.  Or should I say an ending that you as the individual have brought into your existence.  When you are watching so call Reality TV is it really real???  It is being recorded and I am sure edited and scripted.  Is the outcome real or it is what they want you to believe as being real. Ask yourself why???

Why are we as humans (not all) so willing to accept a form of programming in our lives opposed to actually using our time to create the show that we want to see which is within our own lives.  When will you actually sit down and write the script and play the character which is you and begin to create?  When do you listen to the tiny voice within and say “hey wait a minute I want to be the STAR of my own show"!

I am ready and willing to put forth the effort of the self opposed rather than looking at someone else predicting what the outcome would or could be.  When do you stand in the mirror and say (fill in your name) I am ready to live my existence to the fullest.  I am ready to embrace all that the Universe has in store for me.  I mean really it has to be a part of you that is longing to become or do something that you have always wanted to but never had the drive to do it.  Whether it is family, friends or yourself who talked you out of it when do you listen to the voice within?  When it is time to create the real you?

 I will admit it is something that I never thought that I would have to face because I thought I was the real Dawn.  Yes my name is Dawn and yes I am real but there was something missing…  Just something that didn’t seem right and believe me it is not a bad thing at all.  I started noticing what made me happy what made me excited in life. And for some strange reason it was not the work that I did on a daily basis that for all of my long hours was for an exchange of money.  But how could that be are we programmed that success and happiness is in our jobs and what we have as material pieces of life?  But it is never measured by how we feel or how the soul responds.  Our soul is such an integral part of our lives.  You can feel it on an outer level but the soul will emit the deepest most intense feelings ever.  Your soul will speak if you listen to it as it can be considered as a compass for life.
 
I’ve learned that a lot of times my body will respond a certain way or the inner voice will speak but it is totally up to me to adhere to what is being said.  Even in times when you may feel you don’t have any other way sit still and breathe the mind will respond with silence and you will get an answer.  It is not something that I can explain other than being in a peaceful state of knowing.  Knowing that the universe is listening to every word that I speak whether it be positive or negative.  And the responses that surround you will surely let you know what you are projecting out.  Look around and see if you are speaking words of positivity and light. I know that it can be daunting and I catch myself at times.  But since I have begun to take note it is like a game to me.  I catch myself slipping down into the abyss and I will begin to smile and say to myself “ok Dawn get it together”. It is a matter of seconds that you can actually take note and change your thoughts.
 
Remember the mind is powerful and what you put into it is the fuel that keeps it functioning at its optimum best.  If you fill it with positivity then that it what you will project to the world.  If you fill it with darkness then you project negativity to the world! 

As beings we are here to live, breathe, be and emit light. So let your light shine upon the earth and create the “Home” that lies within you!

Do you remember this gospel hymn…?

This little light of mine

I’m gonna let it shine…

Now I can say that I truly know what this song means and it makes me SMILE!!!

So why not let your light shine!  It better being in your Home with the light on rather than stumbling around this earth with it being off.

Just a Thought (wink)…

The Year Of 7 ~ 2014

What exactly is Dawn talking about hmm...? It’s all about Numerology!   Some are inclined to say that it opens up your whole world which is connected to the Universe.  We as humans tend to have a quasi belief in either it is truth or fiction.  But, as in all things it is determined by yourself and what your beliefs are in life.  So, let’s begin this journey.  I have always been intrigued with words but numbers are surely a part of the equation as well. Numbers are very essential in our daily lives as we have so many references that are broken down in a numerical form.  So what exactly does this mean for you for the year of 2014 and what makes it a 7 year?  Basically it is by adding 2+0+1+4.  Typically the number 7 corresponds on a spiritual, intelligent, analytical, focused, introspective, intuitive, knowledgeable, contemplative, serious, refined, and gracious and having inner wisdom level.  To me that is totally amazing and so exciting whereas I plan on embracing this upcoming year in the most phenomenal way! 

 As I began to think of the days that leads us to the New Year this particular topic came to mind which lead to research and finding out some interesting paths to go on.   There have been so many things of interest that has been shown to me from over a period of time.  I have chosen to go within on a lot of these subjects and also have secluded myself from many of the aspects of life to address the calling that has been set before me.   Would I ever think that I would be writing and spreading a lot of the information that comes to me?  Well the answer would be “No” but what I have come to know is that the messages that I receive are real.  Each message that I have received are messages not just for me but for you as well as we are connected as one.  Each and every word comes from a source that is so much greater than I am and comes to me for a reason.  And with that reason knowledge and growth appears.  Although, I knew from a very young age that I had many gifts (Thx Nanny for believing in me ~ wink) I didn’t know how to cultivate them because the earthly life got in the way.  A change began in 2009 it began the low period of illness and the uncertainty of darkness and pain within….technically the unknown and the unfamiliar.  2010-2011 I was trying to quiet the voices that were within, the chatter, the noise to separate what was to be heard.  But, what I didn’t know was I was supposed to hear it all, but why?  2012 was the year of discovery the compartmentalization of my life, my brain, the chatter that consumed me.  So hence my soul sent me on a mission of writing down the words to empty my mind.  2013 I kicked fear out of my spirit and silenced the mind through meditation and talks with my intuitive friend for life (Hi Peri) and began to empty out the closets of my mind to make way for clarity, guidance and direction.  It awakened my inner child and welcomed her back into my life to frolic and play within my soul.  The youthfulness consumed my mind, body, soul and spirit and no matter what I felt like the 5 year old Dawn new and revived.  I was slowly being guided to make changes.  Now, with the changes that I made it ignited people to make judgments as to attacking my character, stating that “I Am Changing”.  My answer to you is “YES” I am changing but isn’t that’s what we are to do within our human experience?  Aren’t we supposed to grow, to experience, and to change therefore implementing it into our lives?   Instead of me hanging out (which I never do anyway) my time was in meditation, reading, writing and pursuing my dream of being an author.  I had no choice as that was what I was guided to do.  So what’s so wrong with that?   And why would you reference my change in a negative connotation?  I cannot live your life or tell you what or how to be.  But, one thing for sure no matter what you say, or do you will never be me!  There is only one Original named Dawn Gregory (from birth) and that is who I AM! What I was given at birth (MY PURPOSE) was just for me to cultivate, to embrace, to endure, to pursue, to walk along the path of Dawn. 
Hey I will admit I am in awe of the transformation myself when I think back.  My memory is very sharp and I have visualizations that are so vivid.  I can tell you this in my lowest times within the void of my life I never gave up although I wanted to!  It didn’t matter whatever was or has been put before me to endure I stayed true to the higher power and myself.  And during those times I had many labels (negativity) thrust upon me and yes it hurt but now I can smile.  I may have felt like I wanted to say ok I can’t do this but the higher power just comes over me and looks me in the eyes and says take one step at a time with a clear mind and you can do this!   The ironic part in life is that no one will or can determine your story without you telling them. It is not like you come with a book attached to your life where we can go to the Library of the Universe to check it out.  That would be so cool but it would be too easy and would not allow us to have a human experience in knowing, sharing or relating to another. 
Each and every one of us has a story, we have a Past, and we have a Present and a Future (PPF)!  So my question to you is you have lived the past and your present which is very familiar to you.  Now what about your FUTURE?  Two Thousand Fourteen is knocking at your door right now!  How will you address that knock?  Will you bury your head deep in the sand, will you try to stall it, and will you act as if it is nonexistent?  Or will you welcome it with open arms?  Will you open the door with a big smile on your face, standing tall and say Hello 2014 welcome into my home I have been waiting for you to arrive!  Now when I reference “home” I am talking about your being, your mind, body, spirit and soul the entire YOU!  I am talking about you embracing who you are 100% and be willing and desiring the acceptance of changes at this very point in your life. 

It is the knowing that will always catapult you above the clouds taking you to heights that are beyond your imagination.  If you are like me and have been living your life day to day, month to month, year to year…What is your dream, desire or wish that burns deep within?  If you have taken action then you are ahead of the game but if not then…What are you are waiting for?  We all have a purpose in life and isn’t it about time that you answer your calling in accordance to what your soul calls you to do?  I was on Face book News Feed ~ 11:11 Awakening Code and I read the following: “Your purpose is not what you do to bring home a paycheck.  Your purpose is what you were put on earth to do with such intensity and passion that it becomes a spiritual calling.”   WOW!!!  Totally a new mantra for me and I do mean a daily mantra! 

Mantra ~ (Holy Word in Meditation) In Hindu & Buddhist religious practice, a sacred word, chant, or sound that is repeated during meditation to facilitate spiritual power and transformation of consciousness ~ (Often Repeated Expression or Idea) An expression or idea that is repeated without thinking about it, and closely associated with something (Thank you Encarta Dictionary)

So I have introduced you to another form or a way of expanding your life as a whole.  It is not about being Hindu or Buddhist it is about enhancing your life to be all that you can and be focused on birthing your purpose.  Always remember that religion began with one and because of man many different facets were formed.  But simply put we are all of one power, one being.  No one’s religion is right or wrong it is about believing in a higher power and knowing that it does exist no matter what.  (But that is my personal opinion – wink)

Right now I am still amazed that while I was writing this I was guided to open up FB and this was the first posting that I viewed so it just seemed like a sign to me, a calling, an affirmation and mantra for 2014…transcending my life to the next level! 

~ Please know that I am not just talking to you but I am talking with you as I ask ~

2014 ~ What will it bring for your life?

Will you make a resolution?

Will you promise yourself to fulfill that resolution for the entire year?

Or are you already looking to fail before you even start?

Will you answer the call from within and begin to LIVE your PURPOSE?

As it is solely up to you?

I know what my 2014 is looking like…How about you?

It’s time to make 2014 a year of:

DISCOVERY

HOPE

PROMISE

ACTION

PURPOSE!!!

Act on your PURPOSE and LISTEN to you Inner Voice….

And make the decision to CHANGE

HAPPY NEW YEAR

HAPPY NEW LIFE ~ 2014

The Meaning Of...

As the holiday season is upon us it gives me an extra feeling of a peace within.  With all of the turmoil that faces us around the world we still should feel a sense of belonging.  Holidays are the times when people come together and share, love and just be.  I often wonder why it is only this time of the year when people tend to go above and beyond to show compassion or a sense of giving.   Why do we as a society decide to concentrate on the spending of money rather than time?  For gifts of material items rather than gifts and meaning of life.  For the many things that we tend to gravitate to that is so commercialized and not benefitting us as a society.  It is the many faces of the world that follows traditional tendencies when they can’t even embrace each other.

These are the types of examples that make up the many scenarios and segments of our lives.   What is the difference between celebrating Christmas in another country opposed to spending it in the United States?

The many, many miles that separate me from the states I still actually see trees and ornaments, chocolate Santa’s and Reindeer’s.   There are Christmas stockings and hats fake snow in a can but for what purpose?   It is solely for the commercial aspect?   Or is it to make us feel as if we are home?  All of these so call customary gestures that are being extended to us is reminding me of the song ”It’s Beginning To Look Alot Like Christmas” ~ Ok well maybe a tropical Christmas with palm trees, sand and water.  Hey I am not complaining at all!   I look at it as being very unique just like me (smile)!

I never understood why one month out of the year it brings the most amazing sense of giving no matter on what level.  It is as if everyone stores up a level of caring until December.   And for the entire month of December our cups runneth over in so many ways.    But wouldn’t it be so much better if we could give that energy throughout the year?  And I am not just talking about monetarily but in the actual action the caring for one another as in mankind.   We all have grown up in a society where there are classes Upper, Middle, Lower.  I am not sure who came up with this but we all know that is how it is.  But from what I know is that there isn’t any ranking or classes.  There is no superiority or lower class the only class is “The Human Race” that is it.  

So where do we go from here?   How do we move forward and try to uplift instead of letting people know that they are less fortunate.  How do we look within ourselves to say YES we noticed that you may not have what I have but my eyes are open and I am here to assist you in making a better life?  I am here to give you the tools that I used for me to grow as I am ready to plant a seed within your mind to uplift your life.  There are so many different types of gifts that we can focus on besides money.  We can give a gift of self where we can incorporate meditation into our lives to quiet our minds to hear from within.  We can give the gift of encouragement, the gift of smiles, of happiness, of love.  There are so many things that we can give.  For me my gifts that I give back to the world aren’t necessarily to be only given on Christmas or during the holiday season but throughout the year.  As I work on knowing who Dawn is I tend to go beyond my thoughts and actions in learning in some of the unusual methods by attending the College of the Universe.  That in itself makes me smile because for me that is limitless there is never a degree that I have to be associated with but overall each step that I take I know that it is taking me to the next level of greatness.  And when I mention greatness that is within me towards my legacy, my own personal, truly what I desire to satisfy… an urge of knowledge.  I have learned so much and in no way am I an expert but I go outside of the box, I go to the next level!  I follow my inner voice that guides me to the next lesson or class that I am to take and I embrace it to the upmost.  I have always had a love for learning and that will never go away because for me that is life… like the air I breathe everyday to exist. 

I LOVE LEARNING!!!! 

But what excites me even more is the giving back of what I have learned and the aspect of sharing.  Yes to some it maybe weird or unconventional but it works for me.   It is something that I have pushed myself to do to not be confined in a box.  I think for me I have always been a nonconformist in so many ways by asking questions all the time you know “The Why’s” lol.  To be honest The Why’s got me to where I am today!  To the most amazing place within that I know so well which that makes me who I am. 

So hmmmm….

I pondered what exactly would be my gifts that I would give to the world this year?   Well I have my ability to learn and try out so many different practices that leads me in so many different directions?  (I think that is very interesting)   Now that I am thinking it would be in a form of re-gifting what I have learned, applied and giving back to the world is “The Gift That Keeps On Giving”! 

So on this holiday season I will give the gift of life, hope, happiness and love.  I will continue to share my gift of words that I share on my blog that is truly a very essential part of my existence.  Words have always been a part of my life and it has comforted me at night in times of turmoil and in time of happiness and love.  It is the gift from above that was given to me that I hold so very dearly that I am able to give back.  I have been gathering up my gifts along the way from the very moment of my existence and these are the gifts that I will be sharing from this moment forward.   So this holiday season I am wishing you all to live a life of POSITIVITY!!!!  A life that we long to have but never stepped onto that invisible step of life to see if it will hold us up.  Stepping out on faith, on a sense of knowing on the existence of who we are and what we are here to experience.  The miraculous feeling of this time of the year is magically filled with lights, warmth and comforting conversation.

My Gift is my knowledge that has been wrapped up for many years.  Now is the time for them to be unwrapped and shared with the world.  I have taken off the pretty bow and ripped off the colorful paper and beneath it all is ME!!!!

As I continue to fill my soul with love, my mind with words and my being with light.  I will continue to share the words from above for us all to live a wonderful life!

HAPPY HOLIDAYS TO YOU ALL ~ Dawn

 

THE PURGE

As I slowly make my way into another dimension of life.  I felt a heaviness that was like no other.  It is something that I have never ever felt before.  It was an uneasy feeling that was placed upon my soul.   Where did this feeling come from?   But more importantly why is it cropping up right now in my life?    As I searched within the books of life I tend to think back to when I would have experienced or felt the heaviness that was thrust upon me.  From what I recall the only time I could think of was my mother’s death.  I couldn’t even imagine why this would be cropping up now within my being.   

I think it all began with a move from one location to another upon the sands of the east.   There was an urgency of moving the entire office as well as personal things.  No matter how I prepared and planned nothing will take shape until we actually go forth with the movement and begin a new life amongst the trees of palms.  In the deep crevasses of my heart there was a resistant and not a need or urgency to move!  I had that moment of really this is actually going to happen WOW!  Too many years, too much time, too many memories cast into the life that once was.  

The move took place and all of the pieces of the puzzle were thrust into my new abode, a new location, a new way of life.  Now, I wasn’t overly enthused but what I did know was that I would not be the same!  This was a new experience and a new journey in life forced upon me.  I have never been one to shy away from a new experience or challenge but it somewhat felt overwhelming.  All eyes on me!   As the inner child prompted the outer woman to mesh together and become the being that she is destined to be.  This was full circle and these steps taken are part of my lessons along the way to create my destiny.   Now I profess I am in a new place and a new space so unfamiliar to me. 

Each and every day I would go to work and go through the motions to complete the task for the day and then return to my chu.  Basically a chu is my place of residence, my abode, my home to where I lay my soul every night to rest the mind within.  As my eyes wandered around the room I saw possessions clothes, shoes, books, knick knack and so forth.  It wasn’t messy but it was a lot a complete overload to the visual.  Each day I told myself that I would begin to break it down and purge...but each day turned into a night, week, and month but, Thank God a year.  Although my mind wanted me to break everything down out of boxes and bags my spirit wouldn’t allow me. 

As I continued to walk into the chu at the end of a long day I would look around and tell myself tomorrow Dawn, tomorrow.  And my mind would respond ok we will take care of this tomorrow.  Then I would lay my head down on my bed and wake up the next day and do the same thing. 

For some reason a spark happened and it was after the 30 day fast (Ramadan)…   It wasn’t sudden but it was those teeny tiny steps I began to refocused and get back on track to Dawnness!  If you know me it is meditation, visualization, speaking, reading and being.  In other words being who I am and what I was thrust upon this earth to be.

I will admit with all that I know and do for others it seems that the very things that I know works I was getting stuck in the abyss and really couldn’t see my way out of it.  But, my trusty inner voice told me to take one thing at a time.  To set a plan and focus on what you want to see.   If you want to see change you must be change!  And in retrospect it is not a matter of how fast or slow it is a matter of taking that tiny step to begin. 

Visually in my mind I already had everything done and I saw exactly how it is to be.  As I smiled from the inside out a transformation was beginning.  The things that I didn’t have time to do I slowly began to do them and it didn’t really add on to my time management.  I was still being where I needed to be and doing what I was to do. 

As I began to gain momentum I started to see the light within…

Each night I would come in and began to dump a bag here a piece of luggage there.  As I went through the motions of moving forward.    

One morning I listened to a re-play of an abundance speaker and one thing that stuck out was if your “home is cluttered with stuff then so is your mind”.  The speaker stated that to begin to gain your energy back and the chi to flow you must delete things out of your life.  Things that you have not worn or used for a year…so yes clothes, shoes, and other things became a part of the process.  It was very shocking that things that still had a tag on it were part of the Purge!  As I was going through my closet and my storage bin my mind wanted to make the excuses and say “Hey Dawn don’t you need that top you MIGHT be able to wear it”.  At first the ego said “Yeah Dawn you need that top don’t get rid of it keep it”!  My hand slowly began to pull it back and put it back onto the keep pile.  That is when the word “PURGE” was heard…Dawn you must purge to get to the next level to gain the peace and abundance that you so desire you must let go, you must release, and you must surrender.  WOW that inner voice was very loud and strong!!!  And I would respond ~ I know you‘re right inner voice!

We always feel that we are in charge of our lives when in fact we are not.  There comes a time when you look back at all of the scenes of your life and you wonder wow how did that happen and how did I correct that particular problem.  I know that there is a power that is so much bigger than life!   It is within and we are a part of the dynamics of it. For without us there would not be the energy that surrounds us. We are a part of the makeup of life; we are a part of nature, of the world, of the planet colliding with the universe.  With all of these words and thoughts popping in my head it gave me a reason to pull it all together and make those steps towards the inner dynamics of my life work.
I began to see if for what it was!   All of the things and the confusion was a shield that was cast around me.   It protected me and I felt comfortable.  I didn’t have to think about anything I knew how to maneuver within that space.  I automatically knew to open the door take 3 steps and you are here 5 more steps and you’re walking around this or that. 

WHY?

WHY?

WHY?
I had surrounded myself with this armor of a false sense of possessions to include a cluttered mind.
What took time to attain vanished within a few moments of time.  It was the ability to see it for what it was.  To be able to take it all in, figure it out and see a change was the happiest part of the entire process.  And I will tell you that this process was not just a couple of days it extended well over a month.  And as wacky as it may sound the purging was not just physical stuff it was also internal as well.

That itself was a very hard part to endure!  The ego comes in and speaks very loudly but you just have to suppress it.  The ego convinced me that all was well in health and with my spirit but I now know that I was starving both of them. The regiments that I was on and the rituals that consumed me every day was no longer.  I wondered how I got to this point.  I was always regimented…I felt a sense of sadness come over me and I really felt like I was punishing my soul and not feeding my body with the nourishment that it needs on that particular level.  But what kept playing in my head was small steps make big changes, small steps makes big changes over and over again.

The “Dawn Moment” as I would like to say was when I looked at my chu and it was with less and it didn’t feel really heavy!   I could actually see the sunlight streaming through the window bouncing off the walls into a room full of light. 

From the small changes that I began to make it really didn’t take up a lot of my time it was a matter of organizing or “prioritization of my life” (thanks JM your amazing)!  It was the late night talking that lead to your comment and a door opening up within me (wink)! 
It was a conversation that sparked a movement within when I didn’t have strength to do it before.   I began to change my thoughts and then the strength began to come back.  Slowly, but surely things began to fall into place.   And the changes that were made on the physical and mental came together to make me whole again.

When you are living life and when you feel that it is too heavy to bear take a moment and sit back and a look around at what surrounds you.  To you it may be things and you may feel that you need them but those very things could be holding you back from what you are to do in life.  Things as we know them to be are very nice and good to look at. But, what I realized is that it is the experiences that I can write, speak and visually partake in.  Speaking, writing and the visual is what I can make as part of my legacy…That is what I can share with the people that I love!  These are the experiences that make up the stories of life.  For me “The Purge” is a chapter of my life that has been completed written and stored within my library that makes up Dawn. 

I cannot recall a time that I felt that I was walking along the longest and darkest tunnel with the light that shines so bright within.  Now I can write it and realize that the ego is a powerful source within.  It will tell you what it wants you to hear and somewhat alter your vision to see what it wants you to see. 

I’ve never been one to want to be like someone else or want what others had.  I’ve always been the Dawn that is happy to be Dawn.  Yes, we all want to make changes to and within ourselves.  But when you really think about it upon birth we are at out most perfect form of life.  We have not been tainted we are as pure as we are connecting with source!

As life moves forward and we tend to fall into the society norms.  Overall what we really need to do is when things start to get really heavy in our lives take an assessment, prioritize, review, relook and purge to a new you!

BEING DAWN

Within the rigors of work a friend (Hi Trevor) saw me and didn’t see me smiling which is what the world looks to see.  Of course a conversation ensued and he said “Oh you’re just Being Dawn”…

Needless to say HEY WORLD let’s start this journey in words…

Hmmm….what exactly does it mean Being Dawn?   Well many years ago I was conceived I guess that is when Being Dawn came about.  In the very early years I had no clue or conception as I was a Dawn in training.  I was the tiniest little sponge with eyes to visualize, a mouth to make sounds and ears to record the minuet parts of the world that I came to be a part of.  As I sit now in amazement I look at babies and I wonder exactly what are they thinking?  What do they see and hear.  I can see beyond the eyes (which by the way an unusual fact) that the size of your eyes upon birth is the same size that you have as an adult.  And that little fact amazes me.  So when I look into a child’s eyes it is the calmest experience because you are not sure what they are seeing but you just know that there is something going on as they are a living being soaking up the experience.   There are so many different directions that I can go in with this title and if you know me you know how my mind goes and how the words are formulate from above.  I don’t alter or adjust I embrace and rely on the power from above that is so massive (smile). 

As we know Dawn means Sunrise (wink) and to be honest that is me I’m not a late sleeper I get up early.  It has been said that the time that you are most comfortable with rising in the morning is the time that is closely associated with your birth time,  and for me that was early sans being named Dawn. When I was younger and in elementary I was the ONLY Dawn YAY!!!!  But then when I went  to high school gosh another Dawn and the way that they would refer to use was either “The Black Dawn” or “The White Dawn” really ummm… my last name is Gregory therefore making me Dawn Gregory no colors associated.  I don’t think that civil rights on all counts for humanity would have liked that at all.  Anyway, it happened, it existed, it was real and it didn’t affect who I was or am…I AM DAWN (sounds like a cool movie)

As a very young girl I always attracted attention and believe me I didn’t ask for it at all. I was happy being in Dawn’s World, Dawn’s skin and Dawn’s existence.  I was not one to be part of a group or to be in a clique I was always me no matter what. In the town that I lived in you have the type of people who had and the ones who society felt didn’t.  It was that stereotypical form of separation that we tend to still see today. To me I was one of the haves in my mind anyway. 

Society Haves~ They have a lot of money, can get whatever they want and they answer to no one.

Dawn’s Haves ~ Family is the most important aspect of your world.  They look out for you and you could tell them anything (well some of them lol).  You know that you would never starve or be without a place to stay.  They are Family they look out for you love you and help you create your world.

Society Have Not’s ~ They don’t have a lot of money, they can’t get whatever they want and they answer to everyone

Dawn’s Have Not’s ~ In my world there are no have not’s because everyone has the ability to use their minds, to pray, manifest, visualize and to essentially create a new story.   But, to society ~ me, mom and my 2 brothers were in this category

What was so very strange is that I never felt as if I didn’t have when I was younger.  You only begin to notice when you are integrated into another world like “school”!  Gosh it is when many different tribes come together to learn and intermingle amongst the beings.  One of my ways to escape was books and fashion magazines.    OMGosh I loved looking in them at clothes, shoes and I still do it til this day.  I LOVE FASHION, FABRIC and the ART thereof it is a part of my creativity!  So how does this relate well? Hmmm…let’s see part of being who we are is our identity and how people identify us correlates with segments or parts of ourselves that may stand out.  For me it was clothes and being that I was a so call “Have Not” I didn’t have the ability to just fly to Paris and pick out an outfit from Chanel.  I had to become creative to fulfill that part of me and that was learning how to sew (Thx Lorraine).  My aunt sewed and that was the best thing that ever happened to me (she gave me a set of wings) as it seemed that I had a gift of fashion, a way with fabric and could whip up something as quick as I turned the page of a magazine to look at it.  I remember vividly seeing a red suit in vogue and next thing you know I had some fabric and a pattern that I always altered to make it specific to me.  In school we had sewing as an elective so I took it and the first project was an apron, pillow or skirt.  Since I was advanced I picked a skirt and made a jacket too and I was put in an advanced class (smile).  Those were the good ol days!  Now, I still look at mags but I am in the sand with no sewing machine or fabric. But, in a land faraway I was able to find a muse in Bangkok that has awesome skills and I am forever grateful. 

Another aspect of Being Dawn was the verbal skills as in talking.  Man I use to get into trouble all the time.  I can remember my mom telling me to “Be quiet”.  I was so thinking gosh I have a brain and a mouth to speak but of course I never said it.  I wanted to talk all the time to show my family how much I knew about facts of the world and random stuff.  Some may say a “Miss Know It All” But, I like to say I am an Informative Being of the Universe (IBU).  Hey that sounds cool and I will surely use that in the future.    Gosh she would use hand signals, gestures and the ever so famous “Dawn Be Quiet” or “Shut up”!  Thank God I didn’t listen because that was truly a part of me that I didn’t control at all.  The ability to learn, gather, partition and assimilate things in my head is an art within itself. 

As am writing this I am asking myself so how will this strike a chord among the masses?  How can someone learn or relate to what I am writing about.  Well, I cannot answer that question but what I can say is that this piece was so much fun and quasi insane and brought back so many memories. 

What I have learned is that BEING DAWN is exactly that.  I cannot be anyone else but me that is what I know and have grown to love.  The Dawn that I know (well I guess I can tell you it is kind of a secret)…

She is funny, whimsical, a little girl in a grown-ups body, loves life, likes to talk, loves sports, loves clothes, loves traveling, loves being a vegetarian (a real one not fake, poser or wannabe) lol, hmmmm….how funny is that! 

Gosh I am smiling when I think of this because no matter what people think or say I will still be DAWN! 

So when you think about yourself and who you are as in BEING __________ (fill in your name) think about to whom you truly are and what you are emitting to the world.  Think about the person that you know and who shadows you 24/7.  Is that the person that the world knows or that only you know?  Because if the world doesn’t know they are probably missing out on a wonderful experience.

We tend to sequester ourselves to not want to stand up and be noticed or to cause a scene.  Just think causing a scene or being noticed is not a bad thing at all because we are individuals we are here to shine our light bright.  And I suggest if darkness is around the corner trying to catch up with you that you quickly hold up your lantern of life and push them or it away.

Life is such a wonderful experience and it is truly up to you to LIVE IT!  There are obstacles that are thrown in our path but it is up to you if you stumble or step over it.  Remember the mind is a powerful tool as it is used in so many ways (positive or negative).  How you perceive or live life is totally up to you whether you live with open or closed eyes!   I can say that I have down times and up times but I am doing my best to stay on the positive end of the spectrum! 

Because if “Being Dawn” is just being then when does the living begin?   When does life take shape and who decides?   Well the voice in my head (No, I’m not crazy it’s from above silly) says I do so ~ Let Life Begin!!!

Don’t stand on the sideline in LIFE ~ PARTICIPATE ~ EMBRACE & LIVE!  Only you know how to do it for you.  I can’t live your life or subject you to my idea of living!  What I can do is give you Positive Thoughts, Words and Actions to push you forward to what you want it to be ~ That is my gift to you as…BEING DAWN!

Looking Back To Where It All Began...My Life Abroad Many Miles Traveled To Finding Dawn

I can replay the very first day that I arrived here to a so call war zone country as the plane touched down I wondered if I was making the biggest mistake of my life... I missed my son and the town in which I resided but what was oh so different was that My Hometown (thx Bruce Springsteen) was as if  I was looking in the rearview mirror....long gone!  That was yesterday and I can never get it back no matter how hard I tried! As my eyes welled up with the waves of the ocean my heart felt like it was taken from my body and given to my son to keep until I returned back to him!

In a decision that we both made together this journey of what I thought was to give him a future was actually to also put the pieces of Dawn back together again. And believe me that was a never ending puzzle still not completed til this day!  It is the many pieces in various shapes, sizes and hues that are typically to create the wonderment of life!  How is it that you are living a life that you actually think you’re in control of?  It is what you are seeing that is the misconception of what your life is supposed to be!  It is the variations of life that will predict your steps therefore resulting in either wearing the same shoes or getting new ones to move within a different direction!

The hardest decision I had to make was to put on those new shoes and walk in a different light and correct the unstable steps that I was taking.   Moving forward with a different stride with all of the regalia and standing tall (I am a Queen ~ JM)! How did I know that at the very second that I arrived that I would be thrust into a venomous pit of destruction! I had no way of knowing but, what I did have was my son’s presence within my eyes and my heavenly father’s hand to guide me as I do today.

So what constitutes a long time
Is it by
Minutes
Seconds
Hours
Days
Months
Years
From where these words lies within my mind I know that singularly they have affected my world in ways that I would not have even envisioned within my life. Each and every day of my existence I always think of my son and how he came to be.  In the tiny spec of life he took a 9 month journey from a foreign land and entered into a world that was to be a part of his experience! Children can teach you so much in life and in times when I feel I can't go on I tend to think about those days when he would make me laugh or assure me that things will be ok (love u Khi)!  It is that bond of trust, understanding and unconditional love that I will carry with me for many lifetimes! The gift of a presence that was molded into LIFE!!

So as I look back to the rearview mirror that had shaped my path, my journey and destiny...somewhere along the path there was an alternate route that was created!   A change in direction, a quick step to the left or right that changed my whole world!

What I didn't understand is the world that was in the rearview seemed to be wonderful!   It seemed to work!   It seemed to be everything that a part of my mind wanted to happen! It was a dream that came to be for a short amount of time to get me to the next phase of my journey!

How did I know that everything would be altered!   How could I prepare for what was once a fairytale life that suddenly turned into a mode of survival! It was a reenactment of a segment that I saw when I was a much younger girl that had not a care in the world except ~ Being Dawn.  It was a time of shyness a time of discovery a time of trusting and a time of growth! With all of those words within my heads and the clarity of my eyes to see I began to create the very different parts of me....somewhat of an actress.  I began to create and hone the many layers of Dawn. As I began to get older I realized that the many layers were slowly being peeled away to expose a beautiful being that is able to express, expose and write about life in a simple word "dawnology".  So looking back propelled me into creating a new experience!

And with the newness that washes over me I became A New Dawn!

The rearview that has been enhanced to alter for the present! No baggage, No experiences, No past. For that has been shelved within the library of Dawn…deep, deep, deep on the shelves within my soul! But, just in case I still have my library card as I may need to check out a previous experience.  But now that I think about it I don't want to re-energize the past no need to repeat it or look back as I have said "I am looking at 2013 with new eyes" (Hey Jason)

So when you think of  looking back to where it all began...
Look at it as a stepping stone along your journey of  life
A propelling point to your beginning
Looking back doesn't mean to carry it forward
It means to acknowledge what you did experience and gone through! I'm not asking you to not acknowledge but I am asking you NOT to DWELL ON IT!!

It Is

Past vs. Present
Present vs. Past
It is the ability to partition segments of your life the good and not so good
It is the means of saying you know maybe my childhood wasn't perfect but look at where I am today! And to think what is perfect because we all have flaws....
No one is the same as well as the experiences of life…
Our parents raised us to the best of their ability to what they saw fit for us and what they learned from their parents and surroundings which created there past! It is an evolutional circle of evolving. It is the masses that try to fit within the same shapes and molds for life! It is a visionary journey with eyes wide shut only to be opened upon your emergence into the world!

When will you decide to move forward
To express
To live
To embrace
To Love
To actually stand in the mirror and say to the person that stands before you ~ Life has been such a sequel of events but I am happy to have experienced the many facets of ___________ (fill in your name)! I am happy, comfortable and excited about who I am! My past is the past but my present is NOW and I am ready to live! I am ready to be all that I am destined to be.

Once you can look at yourself within the mirror face to face, eye to eye then you are ready to take the most crucial steps of life and that is being true to yourself (Hey Marshe) which will promote change! We did not come here to be stagnant!   We are like the water within an ocean swirling and existing in a vast pool of earth spilling over into our universe! When will you dip yourself in it and explore the wonders of who you really are! It takes a tiny gesture a small thought a wanting a desire...

Challenge yourself to being the most awesome being ever!  The most original… The never to be a duplicated being!

Because when it comes time for you to rest until the next phase of your existence and the speech is being spoken just think of how you want your story and/or movie to reach the masses...

I know that mine is going to be the coolest (wink)...

What about yours???