Does My CONFIDENCE Make You __________?

As the old adage goes you come into this world alone and you will leave out of this world alone.  Ok got it!  Truly it does make sense!  So what happens in between when we arrive and when we depart? From what I would like to know (never say assume) is that we arrive and begin to gather information, mannerisms, beliefs, thoughts or whatever to begin to create your sense of being.  We hear so much of what makes us who we are.  Just think about it the influences that we visually see from an infant to adulthood.  We have “The Tribe”, Ethnicity, Astrological Signs, Perception, Peers, etc……there is so much that our eyes see and what our ears hear.  Now of course everything that we take into our psyche is not all positive.  There is a balance which we know as positive-negative, black-white, right-wrong or however you want to conceive or perceive it.  Throughout time in a sense of war there have been two entities that choose to challenge each other.  Alliances are made and the clash begins.   One is victorious and the other is not.  It is just fact and part of our everyday lives. We do not need to be in a physical war to experience war!  As it could be a personal one within yourself or a disagreeance with another.  No matter if you believe it or not the MIND is a very powerful tool it is not a matter of the conceptual idealism’s that is put forth into our minds it is totally what we experience – see, feel, taste and touch (all senses involved)!  Each and every action again makes us who we are.  Allowing us to experience life on a daily bases and formulates the very pictures that flash into our minds from time to time or in the wonderful epic movies we called dreams.

Within our dreams we can be anything that we want to be……but wait a minute isn’t that what we are told anyway!  The segments that play in our minds are supposed to be what it is to take shape in our real lives.  With those very pictures it gives us the gumption, the confidence to pursue and make it happen.  And check this out!!!  Read this over and over again please BECAUSE MY DREAMS ARE EXACTLY THAT DAWN’s!!!  Hey feel free to replace my name with yours.  Again we have an internal plan that was programmed within us from birth.  It is the paths and the steps that we take that allow us to make them come alive. 

It is very detrimental as a very young child to say or express that they cannot be whatever they want to be!  It is the parents, the tribe that we are accustomed to and told that have our best interest at heart.  So, why would my dreams impact you?  Why would my desires make you think that I am overly CONFIDENT?  Why do I have to tone down my happiness because you don’t allow yourself to see outside of the realm of your existence?  Why as they say “Hate on Me” because I have a dream.   Why should I be just a regular bird as birds flock together?  I want to be an EAGLE!!!!  Eagles do not flock (Thx Dr.MM)………get it they soar higher than any other bird.  They have an expansive wing span and they have almost bionic vision. Why would I not want to see further than the eye can see (i.e., imagination)!  Why would I want to settle?  I want to set goal, after goal after goal!  I want to reach my goals and once it is reached as it is a personal one I want to create new ones!  I would think in my mind that if you set a goal and you reach it don’t you stop????  Does reaching your goal stipulate that your life is over?  Do you think that is all that you are capable of doing?  NO WAY!!!  I challenged you to set another one and more after that!  And while we are at it why not set a goal of something that you would never think that you would do……something that you have tucked away in your mind for the “Break Glass In Case Of Emergency” thing.  And when I make reference to goals it doesn’t have to be big as some people think that goals need to be massive.  It could be let’s say for me writing a book.  Set time out each and every day, do your research to make it happen and if you pursue it will definitely come to you. 

And check this out.  It doesn’t even have to be discussed with anyone it could just be an action – your action!  Face it we all want to be at our very best and keep ourselves HAPPY!  Isn’t that what our experience is all about?  It is that internal confidence that is not a bad thing but a good thing!   It pushes us to believing in ourselves and knowing that we are in tuned with the higher power.  I am not giving or implying a specific higher power as beliefs are beliefs individual or in a group!  There is no wrong or right it is to whom you have quite time with, that inner voice within, bow your head to………or kneel.

In my worldly presence I am confident in who created me and what I am capable of doing!  I BELIEVE in myself like no other.  I see myself as a child of the creator!  A Queen within my castle (my body)!  So YES I will admit I am very CONFIDENT! 

But I am not a………………..

SNOB

BOUJIE

BETTER THAN

CONCEITED

ANGRY

COLD

HEARTLESS

SELFISH

MISS KNOW IT ALL

GOODIE TWO SHOES (man that is totally old school)

ALL THAT

And most definitely I am not a B!@$% (that totally rhymes with itch or whatever comes to mind)!!

This list can go for an eternity

So again I ask DOES MY CONFIDENCE MAKE YOU ____________?

Instead of judging me embrace me!  My gift was given to me for a reason!  No two people are alike although there are similarities.  But the path that I walk will not affect your path.  It may enhance it but it will never ever supersede yours!  Your path is just as important as mine!   Be a trailblazer within yourself and create!  Make it a new journey in life………….FOR YOURSELF!  That is what confidence is truly about allowing yourself to be YOU no matter what other people think! (Thank you TAD J)

And once you have that within you, you can truly share with another and make a difference in the world! 

To all who have an opportunity to read my words ~ I THANK YOU in advance!   As this is truly part of what makes me Dawn!   The coolest chick in the Universe LOL!!!!

The Tribe

My spirit is telling me that I left the tribe a very long time ago.  But, what astounds me is that I am sure from birth that it was never part of my existence.  OK…. so you may be wondering what exactly am I talking about “The Tribe”….Literally this is not survivor!  Or is it hmmmmm……………………. Let me explain as I was listening to one of my many mind blowing cd’s (thx Dr. WD) for some reason “the tribe” stood out and very clear to me.  OMG how could this resonate so loudly in my head looping around as if it was a broken recorded the tribe, the tribe, the tribe.  Ok I get it!  As I began to put pen to paper the words began to flow……

As if the brightest light was turned on and for the entire world to see!!!

T  H E  T R I B E

It flashed again in my mind!  I began to smile because I know how the tribe affects or non affects my life.  From the moment of life outside of the womb I was immediately thrust into a tribe, whether I wanted to be or not.  From what I gather is that this tribe is suppose to feed you, comfort you, protect you and make you feel as if you belong  that you are a important vital part.  In my earlier years I did everything right “so I thought” to be a member.  I followed the set rules well actually two sets of the tribe’s rules and society.  As I began to see that a lot of things that pertained to the tribe were not appealing to me.  I had my own ideas, thoughts, and segments of happiness that I wanted to share.

As the chief of the tribe internally and externally spoke in a thunderous voice reminding me that my thoughts were not needed!  My voice was silent!  For in fact if you go against this quasi entity then you will find yourself alone, ostracized.  Basically, if you are not a part; you are a void, nonexistent a non entity.

It was at that time that I entered another form of tribal oneness otherwise known to mere mortals as the “school system”.  Gosh this was so brand new to me!  I was so excited because I have never been a part of this before!  So many new members, different hues, different dialects.  But, what I saw was astounding even more chiefs existed.  As my mind was taken on many journeys I wanted to be the best and I knew I would be ok and not be suppressed………………WRONG!!!

I was ostracized!  For excelling, being smart, being me, my voice; just all in all exercising my intellectual being.  And not just by the chiefs but from the ones who were considered as my peers the minions!   But, what really opened my eyes was my very own family (the tribe).  This daily exercise was a never ending ritual!  Each and every minute, hour, day, month, year!  As I tried to go my own way to explore, someone would always call me out in the tribal meetings that were held.

I was always asked why?

Why can you be like?

Why do you want so much more?

But why do you want to leave the tribe?

And finally I was told this …….. You will not make it with your views!  You need to be like us.   You will just have to accept what is before you because that is all that you are going to get!

Stop daydreaming because it will never be. 

Because I was not tribalanized I took those thoughts in my head and put them very far back because I knew that there was so much more that I could experience and incorporate into my world.

A world that I was worthy of no matter what the other members believe or said!

 At that very point I decided that I am no longer needed and kicked myself out of the tribe.  Even though I was told that the membership was lifelong until I die kind of membership!  But you know what I will take my changes and go out into the world as one.  In hopes of finding more like me my search will be a lifelong endeavor!

It feels good to have finally voided myself of that segment of my life.  A new process, a way of thinking!  Do I have fear well maybe a teeny tiny type but not FEAR that would hold me back. 

For I am my own Island

And it is named The Isle of DAWN