As I began to write my daily Ritual I am sure that I have shared this with you before! But for the last 155 days I have recorded words that I hear and those thoughts that swim around in my head. It is so very hard for me not to listen to the words but I figured that these messages are only for me…but then I am thinking hmmm…how I can be so selfish! How would I know actually that they are just for me? So that is why at this very moment right now I am typing this. If you can visualize my nerdy picture that I have on this blog and me sitting up straight as an arrow typing away that is exactly what I want you to see! Because that is Dawn the very sole part of me that express and records the Rituals each and every day. Gosh I have grown so much from Day1 until now. But today at 155 a cord was struck deep within! An epiphany of Dawn, the rising of the sun as in early morning (gosh the sun is so bright you may want to put on some shades)!
You have been fully introduced and made aware of my sunrise and sunset as in meditation in the morning and evening. That is how I rise and how I rest. This part of my existence has given me a connection that is intensely deep and I cannot fathom not partaking in this each and every day of my life, my journey…the path before me!
For some reason today I have felt an enormous feeling of gratitude and thankfulness that has surpassed any feelings that I have ever felt. I actually had to sit and quite my mind to figure out just exactly what was going on. Now everyone has beliefs or non beliefs in accordance to religions, private practices that have been embedded in us from inception. As a child we get our knowledge and knowing from our parents because that is what they know and that is what they will provide to us as they received it from their parents and so on down the line. I tried to just gather in my head where all of this happiness and the light that I was feeling was coming from. I guess that I can describe it as feeling the warm rays of the sun beaming on my body giving me an orange, glow or hue a glistening if you will. And for clarity NO I am not having nor had a hot flash either hahahahaha!!!
Then it finally hit me this is not a unique feeling…unusual perhaps (gosh has it been that long) as I can’t remember the last time that I felt like this. All I know is that this is the greatest feeling ever (smile) and I would like to feel like this every day! As I was guided on my very own personal cloud into my office/tent I knew that there was a meaning to this all. And oh boy you know what that means …words in my head, transcribing onto paper via pen (Ritual 155) which leads to typing it out to bring it to you to read, ponder, embrace or just say “oh well another blog from Dawn” LOL!
Believe me I don’t take it personal but this is my form of expression that has allowed me to express and build up courage for my book or should I say books that I have already written.
So getting back to that feeling…GRATITUDE, THANKFUL FOR…
Call me weird but I finally figured it out I am protected by my spirit guides with the presence of angels and the universal power YAY! I got it I am aware and that is the knowing which gives me the feeling of Gratitude!
Aware+Knowing+Feeling=Gratitude
I have been made aware of a power that is greater than I! It is not something that I can see but I can feel and acknowledge in my very own way. So I am figuring everything that I have read, heard or soaked in as a sponge has slowly been at the surface waiting for me to have that moment. To have that “AHH Moment” as Oprah would say! It is the moment when everything comes to be united as one (the light comes on) or when it clicks. As I sat at my desk and began to write the words…this is what flowed from the heavens above through my being to you!
I am so in awe of the greatness of the patience and kindness that you give me. Today is a day that I honor you all. I am honoring you today and it brings a smile on my face and happiness in my heart that gives me a glow. I love you so much because at a time when you were destitute I stood by you. When you felt you didn’t have a voice I was your words. When you couldn’t see I was your vision, your legs to walk and your heart to feel!
With all of these components of life that has brought me here today of love of myself that I never even knew existed. Within that form of knowing and the overwhelming feeling of warmth…
Who I am
What I am
Who I was
What I have become in the present
The journey that I am on now
And the future that awaits me…
I am guessing that no matter how many descriptive words that I can use or pictures that I can post each experience is unique! You will surely know the presence which will take you to your “AHH Moment” in Life! There is not a specific age, venue or anything special. It is a calling! A change within you! You know that what you were doing wasn’t working at an optimum level! But when do you decided to make a change, adjust or shift? Do you continue to do the same as in the past? Life can be tricky at times and we all live it so differently in accordance to our rules or the rules from generation to generation. Nothing is supposed to stay the same as we are to evolve our mind, body, soul and thoughts right? I can only speak for myself that from the time of inception I was able to realize that I was learning each and every day. I was pushing myself to fit the molds (cookie cutter) that were presented to me visually when in fact I was defeated from that moment of thought. Because I can NEVER be anyone but ME, ME, ME, ME…aka Dawn!!!
So for the very last time if you see me smiling for just as you may think no reason at all and you ask me “Hey Dawn why are you smiling”? Well I could be a smart mouth Dawn and say “why do you need to know” (with a glare of a stare)? OR I could be the new and improved Dawn and say “Well thank you for asking…I am smiling because I am in a great place in life and I am so forever grateful for my presence in it” WOW that feels really phenomenal to say!!! Now that’s not an “AHH Moment” but that is totally a “DAWN MOMENT” (ok I just made that up TD kind of cool right)…How’s that for originality (wink)!
I’m just saying you all may want to try it sometime! Just think in your head right now and saying I feel great I am having a (fill in the blank with your name) MOMENT!! Admit it doesn’t that feel WONDERFUL!!! I can see you smiling all the way over here!
So the disclaimer is that if you yell this at the top of your lungs people may think you are crazy and try to lock you up in the mental institution (just kidding hmmm…then again I’m not 100% sure)? But if you can get away with this go for it! OR you can just say it silently in your mind several times during the day! Can you imagine the goodness that you will feel! Man I’m so excited! How about you?
It’s worth a try right???
