We all have an inner child for me I call it my tiny voice within. I discovered my inner child I think somewhere between the ages of 3 to 5. Man those were the days! I was so truly invincible! I had no fear…no worries… no bills. I was living my life in accordance to the laws of Dawn. Or so I thought that I was. Of course in my eyes I was the Queen of the Castle. My castle was my bedroom that I had all by myself since I was the only girl in my family. I didn’t have to share YAY!!! What made it even more special was that I could decorate it anyway that I wanted to and at that age I was up for the challenge. I can’t say that everything matched but it was the way I wanted it to be and in my eyes it was absolutely perfect. So… getting back to the Queen of the castle thing. Well…as I would like to recall I was the QUEEN! Queen Dawn I so liked to be called. But then slowly but surely I realized that I wasn’t my mom was. And believe you me she let me know that I was not in charge, not a queen or a princess or anything else of that fact. Because to her that was not reality! And now that I am thinking about it and it makes me smile! I was shown the real…this is your room but it is not actually yours it is mine because I am the parent that provides for you! So actually you are just borrowing it. Gosh that is really harsh!!! Is that reality? YES it is young lady otherwise known as Dawn! Should I have thought of it any different at that age? Hmmm…well I am sure that I did but now that I think nope not at all. That was not my house or my room! The only thing that I had control of was my life. And to be honest not even that. Aren’t we are suppose to obey our parents no matter what? That is what we are told right? Does that mean even if we don’t agree? Yes ma’am that is correct because you can’t make decisions at that age lol. But you know what the older members of the tribe think that I cannot but I know I surely can. Hey I came into this world and was born on my own so of course I can make decisions. I am the Queen of my castle and the ruler of my world. Ok let me retract my words… The higher power rules my world I have to give praise for that. But the higher power gave me the most inquisitive mind ever! Faith in the creation of me and hopes that I was to walk on the right path and cultivate my gift. The gift that I possessed was very apparent in the earliest stages of life. As I always had to talk, and talk and talk. I always had something to say! Tell a story and for sure be in the mix. I was always in the meetings with the tribe aka quasi tribal council. Everything that the tribe members wanted to discuss would take form and shape with me being there. The chief would invite everyone over and most of the time it would take place on a holiday. All the tribal members had to dress at their very best. I am talking suits for the men and boys and dresses for the women and girls (YUCK)!!! I use to look forward to it because I would be able to sit in my little chair and listen. I would raise my hand to interject or ask a question and one the female members of the meeting told me (aka the meanest Aunt (JH) that ever lived) that children are to be seen and not heard. Gosh…this is not Halloween and I am not dressed as a ghost so I know that they can see me! So what is this seen and not heard thing? I looked over at my mom and she would put her finger over her mouth which was a sign that says “Dawn be quite”! I was thinking omg I have something to say and it is important I know that you all can see me. If any of you know the look that is what she would give me so I would obey (didn’t really have a choice). Believe me I didn’t like it at all! I really, really, really wanted to go outside and play football or baseball with my brothers and cousins but guess what I had on a dress and slippery little dress shoes. A quarterback would not be able to get down in that attire. So, what did I have to do continue to sit there and listen and not talk? That is very hard for a percousious child who has a very colorful imagination. So I decided to have my own meeting with my own tribe otherwise known as my inner child. Ok this was not an imaginary friend that is for kids (oh yeah I was one at the time) but very advanced! Oh I so forgot to tell you I am a Gemini so that counts for 2 peeps made into one. So you know that I was and still am on point! I can see things in such a different perspective then the mere mortals (minions) that I deal with each and every day. And another gift that I did acquire from the tribal meetings is that I learned to read lips man that is an awesome talent to have. I knew everything that was going on and they had no clue. LMAO!!! To be gifted and talented is an awesome thing. The higher power gave me gifts that made me into a Super Child. I could write, read lips and tell stories. The one thing that it didn’t protect me from was getting me in trouble when I would use my powers in a way to make suggestions to my mom and other members of the tribe. How would my mother find out? Well the other tribe members would rat me out. But you know what it only made me brush up on my skills and figure out other ways kind of like a Dawn Bondish 007 type skills. As I am writing this it makes me laugh because I think back to when I was a child and being again fearless and invincible. Somehow the world and life begins to put their thoughts, ways and actions on me. With that everyday process you know that in human pattern either you are going to accept it, negate it or both. We take what we feel is good/bad and incorporate that into our lives and continue to add, build and grow into who we are today.
I will admit there were times in my life that I wanted to be like or resemble something or someone else because as we know we will think that life would be so much easier. But, presently I would not trade any of my life experiences for anything in the world. I had to go through each and every step to be the best Dawn that I could be. I am not talking in the forms of perfection as I am perfect in the higher power’s eyes otherwise why was I created? I mean really the truth is the truth why would I think less of myself? You may but I surely don’t! I have something that I was born with that I am supposed to give to the world. It is my messages whether it is in the form of physical, mental or verbal. Words From The Soul my gift I was born with from Day 1. I listened and embraced it in writing and in stories. I would tuck it away and then come back to it when I felt like it. Life gets in the way and then you pull it back out because you are comfortable with doing it and it makes you happy. Hey Dawn~HELLO THIS IS YOUR GIFT!!! As I recall a couple of years ago this began brewing inside of me like a volcano and I kept pushing it down! Making excuses and doing everything but what I was supposed to be doing. But as in all things if your gift is strong and you are open to what you were brought here for it will make a way to the forefront of your life. Although your destiny is set upon birth (your map for life) you must make sure that you have it in hand. So when you think about it your future is set you just have to find your way to it. With choices and decisions, steps and journeys it is truly up to you. I will say one thing if you gauge yourself by your Inner Child the fearless, invincible, fun individual that you are you will have lots of exciting adventures along the way! You will have lots of fun! So at this moment in life I am so excited to listen to my inner child because when I listen… that is when I am at the most happiest place and time in life. I get to laugh at myself, act weird, nerdy just have lots of fun. That is how life is supposed to be absolutely phenomenally fun!!! I urge you to try this concept! It changed my life and truly can change your life if you want it to.
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