As I was riding back from town to go back on base (sigh) these words danced across my mind ahhh… my little piece of heaven is gone! The reference of my piece of heaven was the blue skies the sand less air and the water that ran up on the sand upon my arrival as if welcoming me back after a long stay away! “WELCOME BACK DAWN etched in the sand”. I attempt to see my heaven every weekend when work doesn't supersede it! Even if it is just for five minutes that time calms my soul and glorifies my eyes with a natural beauty of spectacular reverence of bliss. The visual and scent of the water is the most captivating as it is so blue…so fresh and so very real! As I stood there capturing these images in my mind. It allows it to take me back to that very moment of that space and time…but as the second passes it is considered as history...in the past!
My tranquil time is what I make it to be and it does not have to be in a meditative state although I do. But it is when you are with one...with oneself with no worries concerns doubts. No thoughts no chatter no being other than you in your most natural state ever! What I would like to reference would be when a baby is in its mother’s womb. Imagine that sense of stillness of quiet of peace. You know that they are there living, breathing and existing but if I had to think of it in a form of visualization that is what I would think it would be! It is when you are at you most vulnerable state of life’s of existence...gosh as I am writing it gives me chills because I am wondering why is my mind thinking of this as my hands types? There is absolutely no thought about the next words as they are formulated from above. So, am I in a trance state or am I fully aware of the talent that I posses? One thing for sure is that there is no wrong or right way there is only a way from above that invades my mind and guides me along the path of life...a sense of being alive!
So we know of the reference of Heaven and Hell! What we know of it is either what we were told or what we read! We create a vision and interpret what each seems to be to us on a whole! For me everything goes back to my childhood where I began my origin of being my existence of Dawn otherwise known as the sunrise. So, I recall that the most simplistic description of the two (keep in mind I was probably around 5 or 6) was Heaven - the nicest place you would ever want to go and be with God (sounds kind of fun to me)! And then there is Hell well aside from it being a curse word (LOL) was hot with fire and the Devil lived there (you mean the dude that was all red with horns) not exactly the guy that you want to take home to meet the tribe members! Oh yeah and let’s not forget that they don't give you water to drink!
So each time I would think that I surely wanted to go to Heaven because to me that was coolest place to be! The elders of the tribe would say good girls and boys go to Heaven and the bad ones go to Hell!
Ok so I am no dummy I knew the route that I wanted to go. That’s right I chose Heaven (in my mind) I had to be good and obey because if not you would surely wind up in the depths of the dark place without water or even light. That's right it is very dark there as the illumination is only from the fire that burns captivating the billowing shadows that danced around in the night. But, what I didn’t know was by me choosing that unknown route was a setup because to be good you had to be perfect which means that you really didn't experience alot of things except for education, and being on your P"s and Q"s whatever that meant! Is there even a description of what that means…does anybody know? Well all I know it was challenging! There really wasn’t a lot of exploring or experimenting at all I had to be good in every way (or so I thought). Somehow the tribe members failed to give me the real deal otherwise known as the scoop or what I would say the TRUTH!!! I mean come on people…really that is important or is it…hmm! Well they forgot to tell me. Until one day the light bulb was turned on aka (I figured it out on my own). After extensive research and going through the bible (Thanks to good ol Sunday School) it was that our higher power is forgiving and all you had to do was say the word and you are forgiven! Man that is too easy I mean it is not a straight as an arrow path but it could bend a little! I think that is when you begin to experience the life without having anything holding you back because somehow some way you are forgiven! But today I had a flashback of images of my earlier childhood. Gosh I was so perfect by immersing myself into learning and excelling so much to be on top. To be recognized for my mind and what it was capable of doing. To me that is such a heavy burden to carry but I didn't know that back then! I grew up fast and protected those that I felt needed to be protected. And to be honest I couldn’t fight any way I was way to skinny. But I did partake in debating so I had that extra thing called verbal karate (or what the elders like to say-talking to much) going on!
So I digress and ask what if “mine/your/our” conceptual sense of being in Heaven was right now???
What if our life that we are living is Heaven...hmmm (interesting thought)
How would you change your Now
If you knew that this was Heaven and that the next journey didn't have a name but all you knew that it was way more then you could ever image to the 10th power...How would you live? To me that is the most amazing and astounding thought ever!
Would you make any changes as who you are as a person? Would you say (fill in your name) I am going to be the most phenomenal human being ever? No more doubts, pain, fear, abuse, negativity, judging, stereotyping, prejudging, criticizing, perceptions, anger, neglect, malice, strife...I think you see where I am going with these words!
I want you to read them over and over again and see the darkness that comes with each one how could 4 letters in the word FEAR feel so heavy, dark and chilling? I don't know but what I do know is how it makes me feel like right now!
My challenge to myself and to you is to live and create your space and your being as if this is your Heaven…Right Now! Worship and praise your existence! Glorify the sense of your life and what living is all about! Spread the word of peace, harmony and love of your fellow beings! Help another along the way to make the next person stronger! Words of encouragement go a long way! I mean I will admit some people you will not be able to please or give them an understanding that being grateful of what you have and where you are in life is so humbling and praise worthy. You must be happy and grateful within yourself in order for your being to show it outside. You cannot let another’s misery sit right by you for you to absorb the energy! I do know that I can change myself but I cannot make another change…so let them be they already decided to create and live in there sphere of hell! No need to convince because they chose their path!
I know that when I right the word HEAVEN I begin to smile and think such pleasant and airy thought! When I think of or write the word HELL man immediately my mind says I don't want any parts of that at all LOL!
I read and listen to a lot of material which has helped me with my gifts some of it is way out there and some is common sense! But one thing for sure I played back the movie of my life from beginning to now! At one time in my younger years I may not have had all of the cool things that the so call rich kids had but I had a sense of knowing who I was and a desire to learn and grow into a really cool chick named Dawn! So who names there kid Dawn? Well to be honest my name was by default my mom forgot my name (umm can you say Heather) so this is what I got that I had to work with! I had to let go of the past! I didn't say FORGET as in be ashamed or not play it back I said let go, detach, put it down as I don't need to carry that luggage to exist anymore! It has made me a better being (smile) and it makes me see how strong I am (wink)! It was lessons to be learned and not to be repeated as you are wasting time on your journey! So if I was living my HEAVEN right now I wouldn't change a thing! Because my past was my baby steps towards the life that I am living in my present! It nourished me to cherish and create my HEAVEN that I am living right now at this very moment! And if this is my Heaven then boy you better watch out because I am excited to see what’s next.
Gosh this feels really good and so much fun to write! I hope you like this one because it came from Above via Me (YAY!!!) How Cool Is That (HCIT)!
My tranquil time is what I make it to be and it does not have to be in a meditative state although I do. But it is when you are with one...with oneself with no worries concerns doubts. No thoughts no chatter no being other than you in your most natural state ever! What I would like to reference would be when a baby is in its mother’s womb. Imagine that sense of stillness of quiet of peace. You know that they are there living, breathing and existing but if I had to think of it in a form of visualization that is what I would think it would be! It is when you are at you most vulnerable state of life’s of existence...gosh as I am writing it gives me chills because I am wondering why is my mind thinking of this as my hands types? There is absolutely no thought about the next words as they are formulated from above. So, am I in a trance state or am I fully aware of the talent that I posses? One thing for sure is that there is no wrong or right way there is only a way from above that invades my mind and guides me along the path of life...a sense of being alive!
So we know of the reference of Heaven and Hell! What we know of it is either what we were told or what we read! We create a vision and interpret what each seems to be to us on a whole! For me everything goes back to my childhood where I began my origin of being my existence of Dawn otherwise known as the sunrise. So, I recall that the most simplistic description of the two (keep in mind I was probably around 5 or 6) was Heaven - the nicest place you would ever want to go and be with God (sounds kind of fun to me)! And then there is Hell well aside from it being a curse word (LOL) was hot with fire and the Devil lived there (you mean the dude that was all red with horns) not exactly the guy that you want to take home to meet the tribe members! Oh yeah and let’s not forget that they don't give you water to drink!
So each time I would think that I surely wanted to go to Heaven because to me that was coolest place to be! The elders of the tribe would say good girls and boys go to Heaven and the bad ones go to Hell!
Ok so I am no dummy I knew the route that I wanted to go. That’s right I chose Heaven (in my mind) I had to be good and obey because if not you would surely wind up in the depths of the dark place without water or even light. That's right it is very dark there as the illumination is only from the fire that burns captivating the billowing shadows that danced around in the night. But, what I didn’t know was by me choosing that unknown route was a setup because to be good you had to be perfect which means that you really didn't experience alot of things except for education, and being on your P"s and Q"s whatever that meant! Is there even a description of what that means…does anybody know? Well all I know it was challenging! There really wasn’t a lot of exploring or experimenting at all I had to be good in every way (or so I thought). Somehow the tribe members failed to give me the real deal otherwise known as the scoop or what I would say the TRUTH!!! I mean come on people…really that is important or is it…hmm! Well they forgot to tell me. Until one day the light bulb was turned on aka (I figured it out on my own). After extensive research and going through the bible (Thanks to good ol Sunday School) it was that our higher power is forgiving and all you had to do was say the word and you are forgiven! Man that is too easy I mean it is not a straight as an arrow path but it could bend a little! I think that is when you begin to experience the life without having anything holding you back because somehow some way you are forgiven! But today I had a flashback of images of my earlier childhood. Gosh I was so perfect by immersing myself into learning and excelling so much to be on top. To be recognized for my mind and what it was capable of doing. To me that is such a heavy burden to carry but I didn't know that back then! I grew up fast and protected those that I felt needed to be protected. And to be honest I couldn’t fight any way I was way to skinny. But I did partake in debating so I had that extra thing called verbal karate (or what the elders like to say-talking to much) going on!
So I digress and ask what if “mine/your/our” conceptual sense of being in Heaven was right now???
What if our life that we are living is Heaven...hmmm (interesting thought)
How would you change your Now
If you knew that this was Heaven and that the next journey didn't have a name but all you knew that it was way more then you could ever image to the 10th power...How would you live? To me that is the most amazing and astounding thought ever!
Would you make any changes as who you are as a person? Would you say (fill in your name) I am going to be the most phenomenal human being ever? No more doubts, pain, fear, abuse, negativity, judging, stereotyping, prejudging, criticizing, perceptions, anger, neglect, malice, strife...I think you see where I am going with these words!
I want you to read them over and over again and see the darkness that comes with each one how could 4 letters in the word FEAR feel so heavy, dark and chilling? I don't know but what I do know is how it makes me feel like right now!
My challenge to myself and to you is to live and create your space and your being as if this is your Heaven…Right Now! Worship and praise your existence! Glorify the sense of your life and what living is all about! Spread the word of peace, harmony and love of your fellow beings! Help another along the way to make the next person stronger! Words of encouragement go a long way! I mean I will admit some people you will not be able to please or give them an understanding that being grateful of what you have and where you are in life is so humbling and praise worthy. You must be happy and grateful within yourself in order for your being to show it outside. You cannot let another’s misery sit right by you for you to absorb the energy! I do know that I can change myself but I cannot make another change…so let them be they already decided to create and live in there sphere of hell! No need to convince because they chose their path!
I know that when I right the word HEAVEN I begin to smile and think such pleasant and airy thought! When I think of or write the word HELL man immediately my mind says I don't want any parts of that at all LOL!
I read and listen to a lot of material which has helped me with my gifts some of it is way out there and some is common sense! But one thing for sure I played back the movie of my life from beginning to now! At one time in my younger years I may not have had all of the cool things that the so call rich kids had but I had a sense of knowing who I was and a desire to learn and grow into a really cool chick named Dawn! So who names there kid Dawn? Well to be honest my name was by default my mom forgot my name (umm can you say Heather) so this is what I got that I had to work with! I had to let go of the past! I didn't say FORGET as in be ashamed or not play it back I said let go, detach, put it down as I don't need to carry that luggage to exist anymore! It has made me a better being (smile) and it makes me see how strong I am (wink)! It was lessons to be learned and not to be repeated as you are wasting time on your journey! So if I was living my HEAVEN right now I wouldn't change a thing! Because my past was my baby steps towards the life that I am living in my present! It nourished me to cherish and create my HEAVEN that I am living right now at this very moment! And if this is my Heaven then boy you better watch out because I am excited to see what’s next.
Gosh this feels really good and so much fun to write! I hope you like this one because it came from Above via Me (YAY!!!) How Cool Is That (HCIT)!
